Currently Listening Hot Fuss By The Killers see related

Google is the coolest thing ever! (Jennifer, don't get your feelings hurt, but I never read your article in the newspaper about all the Google programs. sorry) I was just introduced to Google Talk and Google Earth last night. Definitely go check them out. If you have a gmail email address add me as one of your friends so we can chat.  http://www.google.com/talk/   http://earth.google.com/

If you have any questions about any of the many programs Google has to offer feel free to ask Jennifer Carden. I'm sure she'll be glad to help you out!

Or if you ever want a cheesecake she'll make you one.

So I'm wondering if anyone even looks at my blog anymore since it has been a freakin long time since I've posted.  Both my computers crashed this summer. That's my lame excuse.

I just got back from a week long visit to PHC. I had a great time hanging out with my girlfriend Annie and all my friends that are still left at PHC. It was great to see everyone again and I can't wait to come back, hopefully sometime in October.

As soon as I get pictures back I'll post them.

Good to be back on xanga!

Currently Playing Afternoon Delight: A Golden Classics Edition By Starland Vocal Band see related

So...I heard an interesting confession today.  I thought I'd mosey on by my girlfriend's window to say hi to everyone in her room.  While I was sitting there chatting, we all started talking about bizarre dreams we've had recently.  What I heard next ruined my virgin ears and will--unfortunately--be emblazoned in my memory forever.  My good friend, let's just call her "Cennifer Jarden," decided to take our discussion of dreams to a whole new level by sharing the following story with us.  A few nights ago, while enjoying her slumber, Cennifer Jarden had a wild, passionate, and extremely vivid dream.  Cennifer Jarden dreamed that she had SEX with one "Savid Dessions."  That's right, Xanga world, Cennifer Jarden had SEX with Savid Dessions.  I know this may be shocking information for some of you, but I felt it was so incredibly funny, the world needed to know.  I just wanted to shout it on a mountain, but I didn't have a mountain...I had the internet...

Dear Xanga Community and Close Friends,

I know its not like me to share my thoughts and emotions.  However, I feel that I know most of you pretty well, except for those of you reading this who have no idea who I am.  But actually, I think most of you probably have no idea who I am.  No one does.  I am complex.  I am very complex. Sometimes... stay with me here... I like to ponder things just for the sake of pondering.  I like to ponder things like... my belly.  And poptarts.  And also, my almost obscene attractiveness, and how it will be influenced when I go bald in 2 years.

Xanga Community, this is a safe haven for my thoughts, right?  I can tell you anything, right?  I hope so. It's not manly to cry, but I think this is the time, if there is a time, for me to shed tears.  I think it is also time for me to bare my soul, since I cannot bare my body without being laughed at.  *sigh* 

There is something I have been struggling with since I was a young boy.  I have an infatuation with Erik Matson.  How can someone so small and angry be so beautiful?!  God, WHY?!  I feel like there is something within him... something raw... something making him capable of cracking at any moment. Oh, how I want to there when that happens!!!  I can only imagine the beautiful things he is capable of.  I would treasure our time together.

This leaves me in a precarious situation, because I also want to propose to my girlfriend.  I finally worked up enough balls to ask her out, and things have been going well, except for the times when I cry and she slaps me.  But Erik... I wouldn't mind if he slapped me.  These two loves!  I am torn!  I am torn like Moppy John!  It's difficult to know which one to follow.  Both are so different but so wonderful.  Does Erik love me? Does Annie love me?  How can I even be sure?  For that matter, how can anyone love me? I suck at everything, and I cheat at golf.  I hate myself.  This is all for now, Xanga Community and Closest Friends.

You stay classy.   I am going to ponder Erik sleeping.

-Chadwick